Friday, April 18, 2014

I have no words.

they are so funny.
his eyes are not just randomly closed.
he is asleep.
very very asleep:
This is what I had to compete with for our history lesson.
I can't.
I can't compete with this Digory.

final score:
California History 0
Digory 1,000

(apparently I DO have words!  but we all knew that, didn't we?)

Thursday, April 17, 2014

life as a mama of elementary aged kids

Everyone says it.
No one really understands it.
Unless your in it.

I've had babies before.
Shoot, I've had lots of babies at one time before.
I've had toddlers.
Lots and lots of one time.

And I felt so busy.
So tired.
My body ached and my mind was spent.
Many many times, it brought me to tears.

Schedules, eating times, safe environments, keeping them busy, teaching them, keeping them rested, keeping them fed, keeping them sorta clean.

Why does this list look so short?
If you know, you know.
It's deceivingly's not short.

But everyone says it.
'This busy will never end, it will just change.'
Or maybe it's 'This hard will not end, it will just change.'

In my exhausted, over spent state during those early early years,
I didn't believe them.
Or I didn't understand them.
Not sure which.
Maybe I just hoped so bad that they were wrong.

I'm here now.
I didn't understand and
They were wrong.


And I feel the need to document it.
For my own family record keeping purposes.

I'm still spent.
It's a happy spent.
It's a more comfortable spent.
It's a peaceful and content spent.
But I'm still spent.

I just understand it more now.
I have a little gift called TIME,
that I was lacking in those early early years.

Time for my heart to have adjusted.
Time to reflect on bad attitudes in my own mind and heart.
Time for God to have molded my heart and attitude into something a little more presentable.
Time to capture the truth that there is a much greater purpose and plan going on that I was understanding.

I'm relaxed.
In my heart.
If you know me and using the word 'Relax' to describe myself just made you laugh,
It's not nice to laugh at people!

But, that shows what God has done.
Taken a girl who laughs at the word relax, and relaxes her.

Parenting is no joke.
It ain't funny.

Well, actually, the kids are hilarious.
Like, all the time.

It's the parents who are no laughing matter.

They were wrong.
The hard of the early years is unique.
If you are there, take heart sister.
It changes and it ends.

Maybe I just needed it to end.
I like to finish things.
I do not like unfinished projects or books or movies or or or.

Parenting is always hard and always changing.
That, I guess you could say they were right about.
Things have changed.

There are new things that are hard about being a parent, 
every day.

There are new things about being human every day for that matter.

I don't have a flippin' clue if what we are doing with our girls and how we are raising them right in this very stage or if I need start saving for counseling because it's just that off....
....but I have time.

Time to have understood that no matter how bad I screw this up or don't
there's a much better Planner at work in the hearts of my kids.

It is not a cop out - I still feel very accountable to give God glory in my parenting.
But it is much more relaxing to try and please someOne who made it His life purpose to forgive me.
It's either Him or the world and we all know how gracious the world is.

Those early years were all about the world for me.
Even if that world was only me trying to prove something to me.
It was still just the world.

That was hard.
Really really really hard.

This is hard, but this is time tested and relaxed.
Deep down in my soul.

Judging from my schedule and every day going ons would be deceiving right now.
Because right now, I'm busier than I've ever been in my life.
In my head, in my heart, in my kitchen, in the laundry room, every where and any where I look, I'm busier than even the early early years.
I'm dropping balls all over the place.
It's a mess! The balls are everywhere!

But that gift....that precious gift of TIME....
and what God has done with my heart in that time....

This busy is busy and the hard now comes with the fact that now I know to give the plans back over to the Planner and sometimes I just forget or most times I just get stubborn.

That, I'm sure will never change and always be hard.
But that is a battle I will not give up on.

I just need more time to practice it.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

just normal

sometimes we have no excuse.
it's not crazy hair day at church 
or Fall festival
or anything really.

sometimes we just be cute 'cause we cute:

next word please!

( case it wasn't obvious. That was a joke.  It's not obvious.  Don't feel bad.  Jake doesn't and he's their dad!)

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

crazy or cute?

It was supposed to be 'Crazy Hair Day' at Awana.

But really, this is just flippin' cute.
NOT crazy:

 (dude.  I totally need to fire my laundry lady! Look at those wrinkles...she must be so lazy!)

(and NO Lydia is not throwing a gang sign over there!)

Monday, April 7, 2014

moldy things....

I'm growing moldy things.

'cause I can't grow veggies.  well, I can, but then I kill them.

so...I figure, let's have a go at the fungi.

the yummy kind.

In addition to a sourdough starter that I started from scratch and am working on figuring out (it ain't easy!) I'm also growing these beautes....

Kombucha...week 3:
(for all my non-hippy friends who don't want to read that entire's fermented tea.  it has live bacteria in it - kinda like eating yogurt...only way more powerful and sugar free.  in short, it's tea that's really really really really good for your gut!)

I got a scoby, that I named Scooby, from a friend and after ONE week decided that a 1/2 gallon of Kombucha wasn't going to cut it.
Not since my four children have also decided it's the new Pink.

There are too many articles on how to make it, where it came from, and tips/tricks so I'm not going to go into all that.
I will just say: YOU NEED THIS, instead.

My only 'tip' is that I use the Tazo brand Decaf Chai as the starter tea.
Everywhere I read it said to just use plain tea and then flavor it afterwards but doing it this way has been perfection for me!

Oh!  And I water it down 'cause the homemade moonshine version is WAY stronger than the wuss store bought kind (it's something like 3/4 'booch and 1/4 water...and 1/2 and 1/2 for the girls bottles)

Ok.  That was two tips.

Store bought kind: $3.00-$4.00 per bottle
Moonshine version: $.50 per bottle



Tuesday, April 1, 2014

da zoo.

TIP: go to the zoo when it's forecast to rain.
it won't.
and you'll have the zoo ALL to yourself.
'cause California's don't. do. rain.
(could have something to do with the fact that it rains like 3 times a year)

 And if it DOES rain, for like 3 biggie...just go hide under the awning with the giraffe's...they're nice, they share:

Monday, March 31, 2014

the other part of our Klamath Falls trip....

....was with my dad's side of the family.

Always a precious time.

I do not take for granite that we live so close right now.
Growing up, in the military, it was hard and expensive for us to get back 'home' and spend time with my grandparents.  I remember those times with fondness and they are very very special to me.

And now I'm getting to see them more than I ever have before.
And now I'm getting to share these times with my husband and kids as well.
It's precious to me as it is to everyone!!!

My grandfather used to own a wooden toy company.
They designed and manufactured toys that were intended to last four generations.
The company was actually called Four Generations.

And guess what!?
My girls ARE the Fourth Generation!!!!!!!!!

At one point I looked around and realized that all four generations were actually playing the games at the same time!
It was soooo neat! 
(and these games will last WAY longer than four generations, by the way, they are SOLID!)

Not only was it neat to see them playing these games, they are not your typical games.
They are games and puzzles put together by engineers and mathematicians so they are addicting!

You can even cuddle while you play some of them!
Hours and hours and hours of our trip were spent playing these precious gems together!
My dad and Zahlen (his youngest brother who's technically my uncle but I refuse to call someone 12 yrs younger than me, 'uncle') played one of the games until I said, addicting.
And as if we didn't have enough to occupy our minds and hands, Aunt Sarah brought her craftiness with her and as you can see, there were just a few intrigued girls!!!!

(when we visit my grandpa's amazing wife, Louise, gets us rooms at a resort 10 min's outside of town so it literally feels like we are on vacation - the place we stay is so beautiful!)

And the fun hobbies continued with a trip to an air field for Grandpa to show everyone his fun remote control airplanes: 

(my mom and I went to lunch with my Grandma Mary's friends so we missed this but I sent my camera in lieu of me and Jake did good ;-)
He builds these and belongs to a club that all fly them together and learn from each other. the way, it's amazingly beautiful in Klamath, next time I'm going out with just me and my camera to capture some of it for myself....

Except Jake...this was the airplane crew for the day:

And this was the 'kids movie' corner....

The next trip...I need to focus on pictures with me in them and pictures of the beautifulness that Klamath Falls is.

But no matter...this was a precious trip.
Both for the sake of my Grandma Mary's funeral and for the sake of so many great memories made, for me and Jake and the girls, with other family members!